L’amour toujours

I was at the gym this morning and this song played on Pandora as I was running on the treadmill. Well, you know what happened next. It teleported me straight to  Paris in no time.  LOL



As usual, it made me think of my Frenchie. I haven’t listened to this song in a long time. I remember that after I left Paris and the first part of last year Pandora played this lots of times so I had real good thoughts of my Frenchie while I was working out . This is one of those that makes me think of him. Good thoughts. Hot thoughts. Ugh!


This music video contains footage taken from live performances of Gigi D’Agostino performing throughout Europe at rave parties. The version used in the music video is the “Small Mix”.

I still believe in your eyes
I just don’t care what  You have done in your life
Baby I’ll always be here by your side
Don’t leave me waiting too long
Please come by 

A little trivia: The title “L’amour toujours” means “love always” in French. However, the song is recorded entirely in English and the title does not appear in the lyrics.

I still believe in your eyes;
There is no choice, I belong to your life
Because I will live… To love you someday; 
You’ll be my baby And we’ll fly away…
And I’ll fly with you… I’ll fly with you… I’ll fly with you

Gosh! I haven’t responded to him. How long has it been? Talk about restraint.  Maybe I’m just being stupid. Well, I have a surprise for him, too. He can’t be petty.  Well, I hope not. Not now. 😦

I always dream that You are by my side
Oh, baby, every day  And every night,
Well I said everything’s Gonna be alright
And I’ll fly with you… I’ll fly with you… I’ll fly with you


I hope you listened to this song. It’s pretty catchy. It can be like an elevator music, Ohrwurm (ear worm) or LSS (last song syndrome) coz it’s pretty good… rhythm, beat and lyrics wise.  


Grosses bises  ♥  Etoile



Blog Networking: 2/18/17

This just keeps getting better and better. 😉

Let’s Network people… check out everyone on Danny’s list/

Here’s how to network your blog. The work is done for you, all you have to do is LIKE, COMMENT and FOLLOW others.  The more you network with other blogs, the more other blogs will network with you!


Thanks for sharing, Danny.
More power to you!


Grosses bises  ♥  Etoile

Shady, eh?

I’m not going to lie… I didn’t watch or read 50 Shades of Grey even though a lot of women around me were talking about it… a lot! I thought it was smut…



Well, until recently at least. I think the director made it subtle and it was actually pretty good. I can say I liked it. Why? coz I’m such a sucker for romance. It wasn’t much about the intimate scenes that I wanted in this movie but it was more about how he fell for her so bad that he was willing to recover from what he was suffering from since childhood that he just accepted it as part of his life. This movie actually had a redeeming value. I hope that  people will look deeper into the meaning of this movie before they judge. Guilty as charged here. lol




and here’s the sound track… very  interesting… pretty cool.

I feel that it has a touch of Burlesque… makes me look forward to that Crazy Horse show in Paris.


… and since I liked the first “50 Shades of Grey” then obviously I’m looking forward to the next one. Yes, I got sucked! What can I say???


Fifty Shades Darker’s  opening night is on V-day! Yes!!!  Do I need a date? haha  😉

Grosses bises  ♥  Etoile

Hopeless Romantic

When I was a young adult, I can say that I was blessed enough to meet the love of my life. He was my Mr. Right until it didn’t happen… then he bacame Mr. Wrong. Well,  the truth is I don’t think he’s ever been Mr. Wrong at all. I’ll call him “Mr. Almost Right” (or my MAR). I don’t want to call him “Mr. Right Now” coz he never was a temporary fix for all intents and purposes. I honestly believed that we were 100% certain that we were soulmates then. We felt that we couldn’t live without the other. But then there’s a twist, it’s like a Romeo & Juliet  love story for us. Yes, so much drama! (If you’re interested click on the link.) He is also the reason I’m having reservations about getting into an LDR with my Frenchie which I shared in  “Love is a Risk“.




I’m going to cut to the chase… We belong in different social classes, my father didn’t approve (and it didn’t help that I was Ms. Goody Two Shoes ), dad shipped me out of the country (hence our LDR began) and we wanted his approval even when we were already planning to get married after about 7 years of being together. The original plan was to please my Dad, get back together, get married in that order. BTW, those years were not all a bed of roses. He cheated on me once.  Broke my heart into a million little pieces but he confessed (I had no clue and wouldn’t have known.)  and I decided to forgive him.



Whilst I was thousands of miles away, I met a man who was to be the man I’d  marry who eventually became the sperm donor (SD) of my children. I’ll call him “Mr. So Wrong!” I’m sorry, did I sound bitter? I am just speaking the truth. He was no father to my children. I raised them on my own. Didn’t offer to pay child support and knowing from his first family he was bad news anyway. But I didn’t know he was in a previous marriage and had kids until it was too late. Yes, how was I so blind???  So naive!!! I didn’t see the signs right away. Oooops, someone is getting sidetracked.

OK, I skipped the part where I heard from my family that “my MAR” may be cheating on me (again?!). This drove me nuts! There was no way I could go there or he can come see me and during that time we can only communicate by snail mail and very seldom get a chance to communicate by phone because his family didn’t own one.  I just decided to not talk to him again.

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I found this and thought I’d add it here just coz I’m a Scorpio. Only my boyfriend(s)  would know if I have a dirty mind. Well, if you stay long enough, you might find out for yourselves. LOL  😉


Anyway, I met another “hopeless romantic” like me. I should have known better to run the opposite way at the first sign… haha   Now I do. He was too good to be true. So that was my ex… my kid’s SD… We started off as friends and he knew about “my MAR” and how we were so in love with each other, and that we were soulmates… yada yada yada (except the infidelity part). He was there for me when I was so devastated by the news about my “Mr. Almost Right“. Then one thing lead to another. Isn’t that how the story usually goes?



As I mentioned, “Mr. So Wrong!” was too good to be true. The sweetest thing. It’s like he came out of the silver screen. He was so in love with me. I still have his cards/letters from when he was still courting me to the time that we were together. I kept it for my kids. They’ve never really known him so I figured I needed to have something to show them as to how or why I fell for this jerk.  Again, I apologize. I have to thank him for my kids.

A hopeless romantic is an expression describing a person who has romantic notions about life. For a hopeless romantic: life = love. Especially when that person is involved in a relationship – He/she thinks about love and romantic relationships in a different way than other people.

This person is in love with love.They believe in fairy tales and love. All hopeless romantics are idealists,the sentimental dreamers,the imaginative and the fanciful when you get to know them.They often live with rose colored glasses on.They make lovelook like an art form with all the romantic things they do for their special someone. They’re not to be confused as stalkers or creepy because that’s not what a hopeless romantic is.  (SOURCE: Urban Dictionary)


Mr. Almost Right and I have kept in touch through the years. In fact, we got back together a few years after I got divorced from “Mr. So Wrong!” and I almost married him (my Mr. Almost Right) again the second time (we were engaged twice). He finally managed to clear his name and told me that he learned from his mistake the first time and never cheated on me again but I didn’t give him a chance to explain.   I wanted to make it right. He was my first real love after all. He was still in love with me but I wanted to feel the same way about him as I did when we were young and in love. It wasn’t there anymore. I did love him but it was different. He convinced me that it will come back, we’ve been apart for many years and I’m a woman after all. Well, it didn’t… and I broke his heart again. I was torn…he was devastated!




We’re still in touch. We talk about the past, the present, the future. We have remained friends and maybe til we grow old and gray it might be that way. We do keep it on the down low coz his significant other, his baby Mama, appears to be jealous of me coz she thinks he hasn’t gotten over me. I told her we’re just friends. He was my bestfriend then and I feel we can still talk about things. I know I won’t cross the line and I know he won’t mess it up for his kids.

If you have no idea if you are a hopeless romantic like moi, check this out to find out… “24 Signs You’re A Hopeless Romantic


Grosses bises  ♥  Etoile


You Da One

This may sound stupid but about a week ago I got several messages from my Frenchie. About 7 to be exact. Six voice messages and a video message. It was his response to my most recent text — “surprise me“.  He surprised me alright.

I don’t know what he’s thinking now. I normally respond right away just to at least acknowledge it. Say ‘thank you‘ and let him know that I’ll be sending him either a voice message or a video message  in a few days. Yes, we’re that busy.

Why stupid? Coz I still couldn’t get myself to respond to it. I finally managed to type up my response yesterday but I still couldn’t get myself to record and send it to him. I don’t know what’s going on with me but I guess I’m feeling down. Or maybe I’m feeling confused.


He did everything I asked of him and more. I was just thinking these past days that for the more than one year that I have known him, he has been very thoughtful and generous and very sweet. Whatever I ask of him he’d do and more. And when he sends me messages, I feel that he couldn’t trump that then he sends me stuff which blows my mind more than I can imagine. He’s just full of surprises. From sending me collages, to narrations to  doing a play by play or just being silly.

One of the things that touches my heart is when he sends me photos of him with his kids. I know he rarely sees them. I try not to bug him but I made sure from the beginning that he knew it was important to me to see him finding time to visit them as they live far from Paris. And I wanted to see proof. He initially sent me photos of his kids by themselves but that wasn’t good enough for me. I wanted to see that they were spending QT with their dad together in photos. He was actually doing a lot better by summer of last year. I’m so proud of him and it made me really happy whenever he sent me those photos.

Just a week before last he sent me 27 photos, most of them with his kids and a couple of long voice messages (3 and 10 minutes) and a short video clip. This was mind boggling, mind blowing for me (@ Recording Audio) and I thought he couldn’t trump that… then he surprises me with this so soon. So what’s up now?



I have to admit that I’ve been constantly thinking about him over the past few weeks. I can’t get him out of my mind. And the more I think about him, the more I feel like I want to be with him… physically.




I want to fly to Paris. .. like asap! I don’t think I can wait til the Fall. In fact, I just checked the ticket prices as I was typing away. But I felt this way in the past. That’s why I’ve decided to stop communication. I’m trying to practice restraint. This too shall pass. I do not want to be impulsive and end up saying something I might regret. Maybe misleading him in the process. That is one thing I would never want to do.

Grosses bises  ♥  Etoile



Dear Side Chicks

Great post by Makaitah Rogue! Quite interesting and entertaining read.
As much as I want to say that we can do anything and everything to keep our husbands loyal. Boys will be boys. Ugh!




Just watch out for these signs…




Women, sisters… please just know your place. R-E-S-P-E-C-T.
If women had enough self-respect and self-worth then they won’t settle for second best. There should be enough men out there who would treat you the way you deserve. Like the Queen that you are. Once he treats you like a part-time “B”, toss him to the curb. Tough love! Sorry, I know some women will put up with that shit. Not this one.




I was fortunate to not have this problem in the many years I was with my ex. Yes, he was one of those.  And I would not put up with it either.We had an agreement that we won’t cheat on each other no matter what. We stayed together for as long as we possibly could.

I just feel it is gross to have to share my man and I can see myself refraining from any kind of intimate contact once I have confirmation of acts of infidelity.  Without stepping on boundaries let me just say that I love to do things without reservations and that’s where I cross the line.

And I’m not trying to crucify men here coz in certain countries/ cultures, women are more likely to cheat on their spouses…  oh, what has the world come to!





And here’s some random facts to wrap this up… check out “Demography of Adultery“.


Source: aha-now.com

Grosses bises  ♥  Etoile


This is a letter to all side chicks in the world and over, from married women. I write in my own capacity as a woman of clarity and directness. This might leave you in damp spirits but serves its purpose to paint over grey areas that you seem to be ignorant of.

Firstly, I would like you to pardon the bluntness that is about to ensue. Beforehand it is necessary to define your job description and position in the lives of many. You are subsidiary to the wife; hence you are BENEATH her. I advise you to calm down and descend from that delusional high horse because you are not better than her. Attentively note: Any sane man will never leave his wife, family and everything he has built, for you. A tied man is not with you because his wife is not good enough or lacking in any way…

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Blogger Recognition Award

I would like to take this opportunity to thank Sakhi of quillnparchment.com. I feel honored and grateful for this recognition.  I am  out of words.


I initially  started this blog as a private one… for my eyes only. It was somewhat more like a journal of sorts to somehow memorialize my romance between my Frenchie and Paris. Then it somehow evolved and I felt like I wanted to share it with others. My goal here is really not to have thousands of followers or be famous or go viral. This is my “happy” place. This is where I go to unwind…to clear my mind. At the same time this is where I go back when I feel lost and I try to find some missing pieces… it makes me feel whole again. It never fails to make me smile. I feel happy that I have started this blog.

If I had to pick two out of many that I would love to share with my blogger friends, one would be to write from your heart and the second would be that I hope the fruits of your posts would be of love, peace, truth, joy and hope.



  • Thank the blogger who nominated you and provide a link to their blog.

  • Write a post to show your award.

  • Give a brief story of how your blog started.

  • Give two pieces of advice to new bloggers.

  • Select 15 other bloggers you want to give this recognition to.

  • Comment on each blog and let them know you have nominated them & provide the link to the post you created.


These are the 15 bloggers I wish to recognize for their contributions, generosity,  creativity, altruism,  etc. I hope you’ll LIKE, COMMENT and/or FOLLOW some if not all of them.

  1. Dream Big, Dream Often
  2. Messy Streets
  3. MySestina
  4. The Utopia Universe
  5. Grandtrines
  6. Paul Militaru
  7. Belle Papillon 24/7
  8. Harsh Reality 
  9. Brooklyn37
  10. Life as Mrs. A
  11. Kind and Bold
  12. Sound of Silence 
  13. Witty Mummy
  14. Wolford 
  15. Opinionista per Caso



Again, I thank you for you generosity, Sakhi.  More power to you!


Grosses bises  ♥  Etoile