Ooooh la la!!! My Frenchie is back on track!

Whoa! I woke up this morning and saw that I got 12 messages on WhatsApp… that’s unusual. I thought it was my cousin who lives in London who jetsets on a whim and just loves to send me photos of her trips. I live vicariously through her, it’s not so easy to get long vacation leave(s) like that here in America. I work in management and I support my staff to observe a healthy work-life balance because I want to keep them happy but 2 weeks is the average amount of time that employees usually get paid vacation time annually and there’s nothing I can do about it.

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Anyway, going back to my 12 messages. .. a few days ago, I received an audio message from my Frenchie (I wrote about it in “Surprise from Paris!“) reminding me that it is already September and that he didn’t forget that we made plans around this time and he wanted to talk about it. If you just joined me in this journey,  I’ll give you a quick rundown. He originally wanted to visit me in April of this year and I told him I wasn’t ready and suggested that maybe around September or October and maybe just to meet halfway. He was fine with that and very patient unlike Will (“My Dirty Little Secret“) who just decided to show up here in the States and not respect my wishes then got upset that I didn’t want to see him. But that’s for another topic.

 

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I love that he speaks English very well. I can barely tell he’s French except when pronouncing some words that I’d rather not divulge. LOL

 

I also mentioned a couple of blog posts ago that I just got over my obsessive thoughts about this Frenchman and here we go again. I don’t want to start another cycle but I find myself constantly thinking about him. Not again!!! He makes my heart flutter. Why, oh why!!!???!!!

 

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I don’t know how many times I have read these texts, listened to his audios and watched the video. What a surprise it is!  He obviously planned it carefully. It’s like a collage, he put together these photos he took then added the audio and video with narration. Oh, wow! He’s very creative. I’m speechless! He says, he went back to review all my messages… texts, audio and video messages. And he thought about what to do to make me smile. It’s been a year. All those messages. Wow! I’m impressed!

 

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Today marks the exact 1st year from that one rainy  night he has set his eyes on me at that shop in Paris. I kinda wish it were a  coup de foudre but it’s just the hopeless romantic in me. lol   😉  … it’s probably more of a  coup de cœur on both our parts.

 

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I would like to celebrate it with a hot and sweaty Tango with him and you know what follows… haha   Ooooh la la

I cannot believe it has been a year. I cannot believe that it would lead to this. Who would have known. My life has changed. He has no idea how he turned my life around.

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Still after all this, I know I am not in love. I know the difference.

 

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Not!!! 🙂

Am I in denial? I don’t think so.

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Lies!!! lol

What do you call this then?

Here’s to another year of celebrating our LDR… or je ne sais quoi??? (I guess….) lol   😉

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Salut!

Grosses bises  ♥  Etoile

Surprise from Paris!

A familiar knocking sound coming from my mobile phone woke me up… it was an audio message from my Frenchie.  As usual, it made me smile. All his messages make me smile. I wonder what he has in store for me this time.

 

 

He started with the usual sweet nothings “Hi sweetie, blah blah yada yada yada…Then I almost fell off my bed when he said “ it’s September, I didn’t forget about our plans… we need to talk.” He was reminding me what I said to him last year when he told me that he wanted to visit me in April… I said “maybe next year, in September or October we could meet halfway… yes?” (because  I wasn’t ready to see him yet). He agreed… “That’s fine.” he says.  It was my attempt to dodge a bullet. Now it’s  here, but my life got crazy and I made plans which I failed to tell him. I didn’t think he was serious. I’ll have to figure out what to do now.

 

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He started with the usual sweet nothings “Hi sweetie, blah blah yada yada yada…” Then I almost fell off my bed when he said “… it’s September, I didn’t forget about our plans… we need to talk.” He was reminding me what I said to him last year when he told me that he wanted to visit me in April… I said “maybe next year, in September or October we could meet halfway… yes?” (because  I wasn’t ready to see him yet). He agreed… “That’s fine.” he says.  Now it’s here…

He says he misses our “connection” … our video chats on Skype. Then he mentions that he has a “surprise” for me. Oh, wow! I love surprises from him. He never fails to amaze me. Everytime he says “I have a surprise for you.” or “I just had an idea.“, I couldn’t wait to see or hear it. He comes up with these crazy stuff that I don’t know how he comes up with. He has a very creative mind. He must have a box full of tricks. lol 😉

 

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I appreciate that he’s been very understanding. He’s never been pushy. I guess that’s why I prefer him over Will (My Dirty Little Secret). He doesn’t make me feel bad even if  it takes me several days to respond to his messages. He even says it in his audios that he understands if he doesn’t hear from me coz he knows how busy I am and he reassures me to just take my time and get back with him when I feel more relaxed. Oh my, isn’t he made in heaven?!

As I mentioned in some of my previous posts, I kinda have semi-“ghosted” my Frenchie. I have gone weeks without contact with him and when I do, it’s as if we didn’t stop communicating. He’s just excited to hear from me and wants to know how my school is going and how my kids are. No drama… no guilt trip… no pressure.

 

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Now here we are … still talking. Twelve whole months have passed. Wow! I can’t believe that it’s been a year since that serendipitous night in Paris. We’re still going on… going strong. Whoa! Time flew fast, didn’t it? I really didn’t expect this.

Here’s to another year… of our LDR… or je ne sais quoi??? (I guess….) lol  😉

Santé!

 

 

Grosses bises  ♥  Etoile

 

 

My LDR with my Frenchie… “12 Mois”

 

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I met a man…  he was no ordinary man. He was a French man.

He was from Paris… the City of Love… the City of Lights.

He was very charismatic, hot & sexy, courteous, he had a great sense of humor and such a gentleman.

Did I miss anything? Oh yeah, he turned my life around.

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Why am I using the past tense? Because I have decided from the start that it was not going anywhere. There was a period of “confusion” (maybe for lack of a better word) but the distance, circumstances and timing were just not conducive to a relationship.

 

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I didn’t know what to expect at first. We just started talking… and talking… and talking. Then one thing lead to another. But knowing that I didn’t want to do LDR’s I had to let him know that it was not going anywhere… and that’s where it started going downhill… or so I thought.

 

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I guess he had to let it sink in and check if I was serious enough. He found out I was, after a few times of semi-“ghosting” from my end. I needed some space… some boundaries. For me, that is.  I needed to push him away every time I felt that he started to suck me in a little deeper into his world.

 

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He makes me feel so powerless every time we skype… the way he looks at me… studying my face… staring at me… most times we don’t even have to talk… we can just stare into each other’s eyes for hours… looking into each other’s souls.

 

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Every girl just wants that special guy who will look at her like this.

 

Gosh! It feels weird… I know it sounds kinda mushy and  cheesy .

He makes me feel like a teenager… there I said it… LOL

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One day I was having breakfast with my daughter and I somehow drifted in deep thought (about my Frenchie) and it made me smile…

then she says to me “My goal is to find someone who looks at me like Mom looks at the apple.”  LOL ha ha ha

 

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Oh, how I miss how he makes me feel.

But it’s my choice to distance myself from him.

It’s been a year… how time flies. We still talk but I try to keep it under control.

What am I afraid of?  I’m not sure… I just know I’m not ready for this.

 

Grosses bises  ♥  Etoile

A Confession

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Ok. I don’t believe I’m actually blogging about this but here I am. It’s also hard to believe that this day will come but all I can say is, “Wow! I feel liberated!” …

Let me explain…

 

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It sounds stupid but there was a point in our LDR when I somehow felt a little obsessed about my thoughts of my Frenchie. Day in and day out, I have thought about him. I won’t go into details… (or I may just blog about it on a different post. 🙂    ) Anyway, I mean it literally. Thoughts of him consumed my mind. It has affected my work, my life and school, too.  Why does he have to be so damn, HOT!!!

 

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I didn’t know how to stop, it took over my mind. I can’t even close my eyes for a second. The more he sends me his sweet, romantic and sexy messages… in English, Spanish or French… it gets my head spinning.  Every night before I go to sleep, I think about him laying next to me… whispering sweet nothings. Giving me a “bisous bisous bisous“all over my face until I fall asleep. I know it sounds a little  neurotic but I was hoping that it will quench the longing I have for him. But the more I think about him, the deeper I get. How did I get myself into this? How do I stop?

I actually have been thinking about what to do about this for a few months now. It’s been bothering me that much. I know it’s unhealthy. It’s so embarrassing, I couldn’t even tell my own best friend. I tried to replace my thoughts with other things but him, however, the more I tried the more it got worse.

 

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The more he sends me his sweet, romantic and sexy messages… in English, Spanish or French… it gets my head spinning.  Every night before I go to sleep, I think about him laying next to me… whispering sweet nothings. Giving me a “bisous bisous bisous” all over my face until I fall asleep.

Then I just realized, it’s been a few weeks that I haven’t been thinking about him in that way. I don’t know how it started but it just happened. Maybe I was too busy with school that my brain just hurt from thinking and I would just hit the bed and doze off. It’s like a heavy burden was lifted off my chest. I’m in control… I can breathe!!! Yes!!!

Grosses bises  ♥  Etoile

Meet and Greet: 9/3/16

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Grosses bises  ♥  Etoile

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