Pressure much???

So my Frenchie an d I just had our 2+ hours of skype chat this week and out of the blue I suggested that since we’re already able to text on WhatsApp maybe we can check in every couple of days or so… Not that it bothers me to chat for more than an hour (it’s more like close to 3 hours. really… ) but he works long and late hours… I feel bad that he has to be up almost all night just so we can chat coz of the time difference and all  (sometimes we hang up at almost 6 am Paris time) and it’s just really hard for both of us with our work schedules. And I think 1 hour of chat is really my boundary (of tolerance) though I don’t want him to feel that I no longer want to talk. I love talking to him though. I do give hints that maybe it’s time for him to sleep then we do our “synchronized count to hang up”… just like teenagers… 😉 lol

Anyway, his response was that he didn’t like the “pressure” of having to check in every couple of days just because of the time or “deadline”. He says he wants to text or call when he feels like it not coz it’s been a couple of days. I said “Ok, no pressure.”  though it kinda pinched my heart a bit. Well lo and behold… same day he texts me…then he leaves a “Coucou sweetheart”  message asking me if we can chat on skype the following day… then he texts me again. and now I’m thinking “what’s going on???”  — back to back messages after  what he just said??? I am so confused!!!

Long story short, we didn’t get to chat. I initially told him fine then I had to cancel and do a raincheck on that chat. He left me a long sweet message (very polite and understanding) and now I’m more confused than ever. What was that he said about pressure? Did I miss anything? I guess I’ll have to learn to decipher/ crack the code (?) sometime soon… 😉


Grosses bises  ♥  Etoile

LDR… or je ne sais quoi???

So “Long Distance Relationship or Romance?” or just je ne sais quio… one of my girlfriends was arguing with me sometime in October that this was no LDR because we were thousands of miles away from each other and I never went out with him (in Paris). I turned him down and still refuse to see him when he offered to come and visit me here in the US because I’m not quite ready (still warming up). My argument was, it doesn’t matter that there’s that 5,000+ miles between us because a lot of people develop a relationship through the internet and I would like to see how this goes but for now I would like to stay friends and that is a relationship, hence, still an LDR.


I decided to write about what exactly is an LDR…  for starters, we all know it stands for “long distance relationship”. I wanted to switch the R to “romance” just because… But what is it exactly? Is it an LDR if we haven’t really placed a “label” on this je ne sais quoi. coz we haven’t really… just coz we don’t want to… not just yet… “no pressure just pleasure” is kinda our thing. Well, I kinda like it for now.  Hmmm… doesn’t it sound like something a guy would say? 😉


First I’ll break it down…

LD = Long Distance.

Approximately 5,000+ miles of land and water separates us from each other. And the time difference doesn’t make it any easier.



Relationship means…

  • a connection, association,  or involvement  between individuals
  • an emotional,  romantic. or “passionate attachment between people
  • a romantic or sexual friendship between two people
  • the way in which two or more people or things are connected


Romance means…[ romauns, from Old French romans, ultimately from Latin Rōmānicus Roman]… (noun) 1. a love affair, esp an intense and happy but short-lived affair involving young people; 2. love, esp romantic love idealized for its purity or beauty; 3. a spirit of or  inclination for adventure, excitement, or mystery; 4. a mysterious, exciting, sentimental, or nostalgic quality, esp one associated with a place.



I can tell you that it’s not going to be easy… even with the abundance of different options in tech communication that may bridge the gap. It takes a lot of work, consistency, commitment and  big time TRUST for it to work. I  still don’t trust the guy. I think he’s full of shit…. well, sometimes…   If he weren’t so HOT! lol  I think he’s either married with a wife who lives far from Paris or he has lots of girlfriends or maybe both.  😉   But this is just me being paranoid… he could also just  be single and emotionally unavailable.


I found this article  on  “3 Things that make long distance relationships stronger“…  It’s very enlightening… and insightful…  as well as this one… “18 little ways you can tell in the first month that your relationship is actually going to last“…  I think this should help you decide if it’s worth investing your time and energy on this LDR before it’s too late.

Anyway, I feel that our connection is undeniable… there’s definitely something going on. We have started early on calling each other endearing names. The ambiguity of our “relationship” is quite unsettling at times but the excitement it brings is  off the charts. I have never met a man who has blown my mind and rocked my world without even touching the tip of my finger. The high I get from our skype sessions stays with me for weeks on end. Oh-em-gee!!! There is a god!!!



La vie est belle, n’est-ce pas?


Grosses bises  ♥  Etoile


Bisous bisous bisous…

The first time my FM and I skyped (video chat) was quite exciting… I felt like a  teenager. I blushed so much and laughed and smiled. I don’t remember laughing at a guy’s jokes as much as I did that day. I felt like he was the funniest man I’ve ever met. And I couldn’t keep eye contact since I didn’t want to give away how I felt. I was so embarrassed that he stared at me so much and I didn’t want him to notice that I couldn’t stop staring at his lips and dreaming how nice and sweet our kiss would be. Anyway, he talked most of the time and I just listened and laughed and blushed. I couldn’t find the words with him staring at me like that.

I’ve noticed that he likes to talk and write about kissing me… he also writes and/or talks about how beautiful, and sexy he thought I was and I just thought that was funny and very flattering. But at the same time I couldn’t help but think if they were just “words” from a French man which comes out naturally or was he really thinking about those kisses exactly how he wrote or stated them. Now this part is really driving me nuts because I haven’t felt such a strong connection with a man in a while so I feel a little bit of confusion and self-doubt. I didn’t want to get ahead of myself then end up disappointed or heart broken.

I’m feeling such a plethora of emotions that I can’t explain. Am I starting to fall hard for this man that I barely met? It’s weird how I can miss someone who I hardly knew. And I can’t stop thinking about kissing him and the fireworks that goes with it. This made me think of what Drew Barrymore told her friend in the movie “Never been Kissed”. Well, I hope I’ll be able to see that day.

Grosses bises  ♥  Etoile

“That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you’re supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that that it will go away all at the same time.”  ~~~ Josie Geller (Never been Kissed)