One Year WP Anniv. already?

I  couldn’t believe it.  It has been a year and  1 month since my first blog post, “A Flower in (Late) Bloom… how it all started…” —  Oct. 30th 2015… Wow!!! Has it really been a year? I guess… since My Frenchie and I have celebrated 1 year of our “LDR or je ne sais quio” not too long ago.

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I initially started this blog as a journal and it was a private blog, for my eyes only. I just wanted to document the experience, joy, excitement, craziness that this LDR was bringing into my life. But then I realized, weeks later, that it would be nice to engage with other women around the globe who were also involved in this journey as I didn’t know what to expect.

 

 

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I told My Frenchie from the get go that I didn’t want a relationship but you’ll never know what the future has in store. Yes? I’m just open to all the possibilitie though I know an LDR won’t fly for me. I’m not being pessimistic… I’m just being practical and realistic.

 

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I would like to give a big shout out to all my readers. THANK YOU!!! I’m still here and I don’t know how long I’ll be blogging but since it mostly revolves around My Frenchie, I guess I’ll stay til this LDR wilts… though I’m keeping my fingers crossed that it won’t… not just yet.

 

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Here’s to another colorful year for me, My Frenchie and you all… 🙂

 

 

More power to you!!!

Grosses bises  ♥  Etoile

Retrouvailles

continuation of “Getting Off the Roller Coaster

Days passed… no word…

I didn’t know what to do. I was feeling restless… but I have this “No Calls rule“. I know, it’s irrational… immature… I guess I’m just anxious and afraid that he might not pick up. After all, I was the one who said I was done… right after I reassured him that we were fine.

Then I found this: Retrouvailles… I have seen this word many times in the past but I never really gave it a second look to think about what it meant.   This can’t be a coincidence… I have been thinking about him… I wonder if he thought about me too. He’s probably tired of me being fickle minded.

So I decided to send this photo… with a short text…

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Hi, babe… are you “finished”? I’m sorry… I thought I was… but I was just going through a lot… I don’t know what I was thinking.

I found this word then I thought, “I was really looking forward to that coffee in Paris with you.”

I miss how you make me smile and feel hot all over with your surprises.    😉     Please don’t stop. I still hope you’ll make your way here, too.

I want to hear your voice again… I miss it… a damn lot!!!

Muchos besitos… XOX

 

Now all I had to do was wait…

 

Grosses bises  ♥  Etoile

 

 

Getting Off the Roller Coaster

I don’t know what’s gotten over me. Sometime last month, I just thought of sending My Frenchie a  funny French humor gif then all of a sudden I started typing this as if my fingers had a mind of it’s own… it was short and sweet…

I’m so stressed and tired from school and work and I can’t wait to leave. (I was contemplating to resign and/or go out of town.)  We had a good run. It was a good year of roller coaster ride with you. I’m starting to feel that this is a good time to get off. I want to leave with a good taste in my mouth…

 

yada… yada… yada…

 

I’ll miss doing these crazy things with you coz I don’t think I’ll do it with anyone… all good things come to an end… c’est la vie…

 

or maybe it’s the Tequila.

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Drunk texting is never a good idea… but I don’t think I was drunk. I was just so tired and haven’t slept reviewing for my finals so having a drink just made me a little vulnerable…

 

Then I hit send. Ugh!!! Noooo!!!

 

I can’t explain it… I was just reassuring him last month not to worry after he says “We’re not finished!“…  What have I done? I thought, “I can’t take it back now.”

All is said and done… I’ll probaby not hear from him again.   😦

 

to be continued…

 

Grosses bises  ♥  Etoile