The first time my FM and I skyped (video chat) was quite exciting… I felt like a teenager. I blushed so much and laughed and smiled. I don’t remember laughing at a guy’s jokes as much as I did that day. I felt like he was the funniest man I’ve ever met. And I couldn’t keep eye contact since I didn’t want to give away how I felt. I was so embarrassed that he stared at me so much and I didn’t want him to notice that I couldn’t stop staring at his lips and dreaming how nice and sweet our kiss would be. Anyway, he talked most of the time and I just listened and laughed and blushed. I couldn’t find the words with him staring at me like that.
I’ve noticed that he likes to talk and write about kissing me… he also writes and/or talks about how beautiful, and sexy he thought I was and I just thought that was funny and very flattering. But at the same time I couldn’t help but think if they were just “words” from a French man which comes out naturally or was he really thinking about those kisses exactly how he wrote or stated them. Now this part is really driving me nuts because I haven’t felt such a strong connection with a man in a while so I feel a little bit of confusion and self-doubt. I didn’t want to get ahead of myself then end up disappointed or heart broken.
I’m feeling such a plethora of emotions that I can’t explain. Am I starting to fall hard for this man that I barely met? It’s weird how I can miss someone who I hardly knew. And I can’t stop thinking about kissing him and the fireworks that goes with it. This made me think of what Drew Barrymore told her friend in the movie “Never been Kissed”. Well, I hope I’ll be able to see that day.
Grosses bises ♥ Etoile
“That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you’re supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that that it will go away all at the same time.” ~~~ Josie Geller (Never been Kissed)